My Problem.

[victoriYUH_]

Hey guys,
I had a little incident tonight on a massive during a roleplay with Christine. She was getting her ass kicked by two guys at The Hidden Dragon because she had a panic attack and apparently caused a scene even though she was completely silent. I understand why this had to happen, and I understand why she couldn't beat over the two men and win.
I've been struggling since I created Christine with the problem of putting myself into her. My hope to come out on top, to be a winner, to be popular in Regilia. She has, but in a way I don't want her to be. This problem has been dealt with in severe and serious ways, yet it still continues since I pour most of my emotions into her. I know I shouldn't do that, and I know that flows into real life and how my lifestyle is, but it just happens, out of the blue. I feel like I've lost control of her. She's been arrested multiple times, faked her death, lost multiple jobs and abandoned her family. Overall I've lost all hope for her at this point.

I just want her to be on top. Just once.
Because I feel like she's someone I've made a personal connection with, even though she's just a character.

I'd love some prayers and advice and maybe some guidance from the Massive family in this hard time I'm going through. I'll remain active as her, but please keep all this in mind

Huge and kisses,
Victoria.

 

[Nixces]

oh yikes............................​

 

[victoriYUH_]

Yeeeaaaah, it's gotten worse than it ever has lol

 

[SorryNari]

Hey guys,
I had a little incident tonight on a massive during a roleplay with Christine. She was getting her ass kicked by two guys at The Hidden Dragon because she had a panic attack and apparently caused a scene even though she was completely silent. I understand why this had to happen, and I understand why she couldn't beat over the two men and win.
I've been struggling since I created Christine with the problem of putting myself into her. My hope to come out on top, to be a winner, to be popular in Regilia. She has, but in a way I don't want her to be. This problem has been dealt with in severe and serious ways, yet it still continues since I pour most of my emotions into her. I know I shouldn't do that, and I know that flows into real life and how my lifestyle is, but it just happens, out of the blue. I feel like I've lost control of her. She's been arrested multiple times, faked her death, lost multiple jobs and abandoned her family. Overall I've lost all hope for her at this point.

I just want her to be on top. Just once.
Because I feel like she's someone I've made a personal connection with, even though she's just a character.

I'd love some prayers and advice and maybe some guidance from the Massive family in this hard time I'm going through. I'll remain active as her, but please keep all this in mind

Huge and kisses,
Victoria.

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Your character initially got beat up by Fenic after multiple warnings, was told to leave, was thrown out, but came in from the other entrance, then in comes @ChapterDeath 's character who joins in the fight.

Your character was beat up because she didn't leave and was warned to. I'm sorry that you're emotionally/mentally having a hard time, but you should know which fights to pick.

 

[Nixces]

and then she turned around and came back in after being kicked out?​

 

[victoriYUH_]

Thank you for your input.

 

[victoriYUH_]

yeah

 

[Jonificus]

Ah, hello friend.

While I trust that it was an uncomfortable experience I do however doubt that your character was beaten simply because she was having a panic attack. Mental health in the Empire isn't explored all that much, even in the medical community, so a panic attack to a layperson could be a frightening or very confusing thing to witness. This might be what was considered making a scene, as for all they knew it might've been madness or a demonic possession. Ganging up on a panicked woman is quite unfair considering how debilitating a panic attack can be, but isn't against the rules. In my experience these things rarely, if never, happens without legitimate reason. The reason might have come about five minutes ago or a week ago, either way there's almost always a reason for it.

If you want to talk character design and roleplay feel free to contact me on discord at Jonificus#1675