Leaving behind something that you grew up with is always hard. That first day in a new city, your first year living away from home, that first step towards adult life; it is a challenge. People are slow to adapt to change, and to be thrust into a new environment, or out of a familiar one, takes time to adjust to.
My year has had a lot of these changes. For the first time in my 19 years of life, I no longer live with my parents. After I graduated High School, I moved off to study theatre near the capital of Norway. I had to leave behind a lot of what made my childhood, and defined me as a person. I had to say goodbye to lifelong friends, and goodbye to my hometown. With a rocky internet, and very little free time, I also had to say goodbye to one of my constant sources of joy through my rocky Teens; MassiveCraft.
I, like many others, grew up on this server. I came in here in about 2014, as a stupid kid with little to no knowledge of Rp, and no desire to read wiki pages. I was abrasive, edgy and quite honestly an embarrassment. I almost quit one week in, but something kept pulling me back into this world. I read the lore, and I made friends. I improved my talents as a roleplayer, a character writer, and a person over the years on this server. The people I befriended has been with me through everything: my first heartbreak, my deepest depression, my recovery, my graduation, my ups and downs. Throughout it all, MassiveCraft has been there. MassiveCraft was there when I truly embraced my passion for the theatrical, and it was there when I decided to pursue it. Throughout the years, I have been many things on this server. I have been a player, I have been a group leader, a special permission holder, and a staff member in the Event Department.
I met wonderful and creative people. People who understood me, and who would be there as I cried, ranted, and laughed in VC's.
That is why, it pains me so to return during my christmas break.
I realize now, that all the memories I cherished on this server are past. The people are present, and the setting holds true, but it has left me behind. I do not feel the same connection to the server as I did in the past. It is not the fault of the players, or the server, but me. It is with a heavy heart, that I have to admit to myself that MassiveCraft has passed me by. I have grown past it, and it has grown past me.
With that said, I'd like to finish this pointless ramble-thread by thanking you all. The people who help make my childhood what it is, and who helped me grow into the relatively well-adjusted adult man I am today.
THANK YOU!
My year has had a lot of these changes. For the first time in my 19 years of life, I no longer live with my parents. After I graduated High School, I moved off to study theatre near the capital of Norway. I had to leave behind a lot of what made my childhood, and defined me as a person. I had to say goodbye to lifelong friends, and goodbye to my hometown. With a rocky internet, and very little free time, I also had to say goodbye to one of my constant sources of joy through my rocky Teens; MassiveCraft.
I, like many others, grew up on this server. I came in here in about 2014, as a stupid kid with little to no knowledge of Rp, and no desire to read wiki pages. I was abrasive, edgy and quite honestly an embarrassment. I almost quit one week in, but something kept pulling me back into this world. I read the lore, and I made friends. I improved my talents as a roleplayer, a character writer, and a person over the years on this server. The people I befriended has been with me through everything: my first heartbreak, my deepest depression, my recovery, my graduation, my ups and downs. Throughout it all, MassiveCraft has been there. MassiveCraft was there when I truly embraced my passion for the theatrical, and it was there when I decided to pursue it. Throughout the years, I have been many things on this server. I have been a player, I have been a group leader, a special permission holder, and a staff member in the Event Department.
I met wonderful and creative people. People who understood me, and who would be there as I cried, ranted, and laughed in VC's.
That is why, it pains me so to return during my christmas break.
I realize now, that all the memories I cherished on this server are past. The people are present, and the setting holds true, but it has left me behind. I do not feel the same connection to the server as I did in the past. It is not the fault of the players, or the server, but me. It is with a heavy heart, that I have to admit to myself that MassiveCraft has passed me by. I have grown past it, and it has grown past me.
With that said, I'd like to finish this pointless ramble-thread by thanking you all. The people who help make my childhood what it is, and who helped me grow into the relatively well-adjusted adult man I am today.
THANK YOU!
